I don't understand the male species. As soon as I think I have them figured out, they do something so unexpected or something so curious that all my theories are blown out the door. I mean I know that guys think that girls are confusing, but at least if you asked us(well at least me) Id try to give you an explanation of why I did/said/thought something unless is was an impulse. Whereas you try and ask a guy why they do/say/think something and suddenly they cant here you or the use the all classical "I don't know".. Do they really not know or are they just too dang prideful to show a little emotion or give us a little peak into their mind.
Then there's the guy who is like venus fly trap in my life. I mean I don't think I even really like him, what makes me want to go back is the fact the fact that he does. Not many guys do and I just find is so easy to slip right back to him, but it seems like I'm the back up plan. We went out for three months, right around this time last year, but it wasn't until after he tried to go out with all of my friends. And then we went out again six months after we broke up right after him and his girlfriend broke up. And then he goes and breaks up with me because I act too much like an adult. What kind of reason is that... But now he wants to be friends and he calls me and leaves me these messages that make me want to call him back, make me want to be with him even though I don't even like him. What kind of person does that make me?
Sometimes I think that i don't even want to get married anymore because guys are just so confusing. They can't even humble themselves a little to let us know how they think or anything. But then other times, like last night, just being at the mall, nip in the air, hot coffee in my hands dark night sky.... I just wish I had someones hand to hold and walk with and share some romantic laughs with. But as I'm typing this out I realize how ridiculous this must sound to anyone. But its something that I want more than anything in life.
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