25

The number of days left in my high school career. 

Lately I've realized that the older I get, the faster time seems to fly by me. Those weeks that used to seem like years are slowly but surely turning into mere days. I am eighteen. Legally I'm an adult. Most of us look forward to the day when we can say that..In reality, it's kinda scary. Most people only think about the new so called "freedom" that they will have, rather than all the new found responsibilities that you take on. 

I recently moved to California, ohh California[Thats a completely different story though], from Pennsylvania.. It will be two years on August 14th. A lot has happened in that two years. I've discovered things about me as person, although I'm still searching for who I really am, I've developed and destroyed friendships, I've began my relationship with God.... All of these things are great... but it all just happened. I'm not ready to start over.. Not yet. I like the people I know now, I'm just starting to get comfortable in my surroundings.. These twenty-five school days are going to whip past so fast that I wont know what hit me until I'm [hopefully] walking up to get my diploma. I have twenty-five school days to establish the relationships that I want to last past high school, to decide whose face I never want to see again, to decide if....if certain things are even worth my time anymore because I might only have twenty-five days to see their face, hear their voice.. Its all a snap of a finger in comparison to the big picture. 

The big picture..... that's what I'm ultimately striving towards in life. All these little things don't even matter... Sometimes I wish I was older... already in the process of establishing my life, my family, my traditions. Have my family growing in the light of the Lord.... speaking of Him...I've really been turning towards Him lately.. Trying to find clarity, understanding, patience...there's a whole list of things. What I've found is that He is not going to just give me these things.. But He will give me tasks as to which the outcome will be what I was searching for in the first place. I've been hoping lately that I will not abandon my relationship with Christ.. with VGCC.. as it is making a better person.. I know this, I can see it. Yes, I still have my flaws, but what human being dosent? 

Ahh.. twenty-five..

The number of days left in my high school career..

The age I wish I was....